carry me

A lot has been going on in my (sherann) life.  To be honest, I'm going through a rough season.   I won’t go into details, but I’ve shared one of my personal thorns.  My OCD has been a constant battle.  Yesterday, for example, was an all time low and I even came to a point of saying… “why! Why me?! Why can’t I go back to being normal?! God, please take this away!”  Thankfully, I have friends and my brother who graciously listen to me while I have my episodes. (I’m sure they think I’m nuts, but still love me anyway) 

Anyway, I called Aimee and just basically said… “Why doesn’t God just take this away from me?” Conclusion? Don’t know.  To be honest, I don’t know when or even if He will take this from me.  At the same time, I HAVE to TRUST that God has this issue in the palm of His hands.  I’m constantly battling this and I’m not going to lie… it’s hard.  Along with everything else going on in my personal life, I feel absolutely overwhelmed.  And maybe you feel overwhelmed as well.  Life seems so hard and difficult.  I know… I’m in the same boat as you.

BUT. (yes, here comes the “but”…)

I know… no, as a matter of fact I BELIEVE that even though our circumstances may change, we have a heavenly Father who does not change.  When I read the scriptures, I am reminded of who He is and for that reason I can trust Him.  I can trust that He is out for my good. 

Why?

Because He loves me.  He loves you. 

“In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.” 1 John 4.10 (ESV)

I know He loves me.  And no matter where I am or where you may be in this season, I hope you will join me in receiving the Father’s love.  And truth be told... it doesn't matter if you are a baby believer or a faithful follower for 50 years.  Point is this... the cross is our continual defense and a reminder that even through life's deepest valleys, the Father never recants His love for you or for me.  And that's why we can call Him faithful.